There’s an inner voice fighting to be heard
but there is a layer of sadness that drowns it out
A layer of lies that causes me to listen to the voice of doubt
What do you do when you’re too tired to fight?
When everything feels loud …even when the house is quiet at night
What do you do when you just want to sleep?
When your prayers go unanswered when you pray to the Lord your soul to keep…
Some nights I feel as if I’m drowning
Choking on the tears from the internal crying…
I know I’m not alone
Sometimes I find comfort in the rain sounds emitting from my phone

I know these feelings will soon pass
Gotta put this body in motion
I have to learn how to embrace all of this
instead of judging myself
or seeing the quickest distraction
Candy Crush won’t do…
Neither will mindless scrolling
I gotta inhale exhale
instead of trying to contain the breath I’m holding….

Surrender and rest