So recently I’ve been on a journey to self-care. I’m not surprised when lessons come flying at me daily. I mean it’s what I asked for right? Guidance, clarity, answers etc. Well here comes an aha moment bought to you by life.
I like to call myself a problem solver. Hell, I’ve even gone so far as to call myself a creative solutions expert. If there’s a problem, I don’t stop until I find it. Is that such a bad thing? Well, it is if I don’t find a balance. When I was a full-time natural hair stylist, my clients would call me their stylist/life coach. It shocked me every time because I felt like I didn’t have my life in order and sometimes have a difficult time solving my own problems. Anyway…. I’ve recently started to feel super depleted. I also just recently accepted that I’m an empath. I can literally feel and take on other’s emotions. carry them and sometimes assume that it’s my shit I’m carrying. If I sensed that someone was going through something< I couldn’t help but ask them if they were ok and in some instances offer myself as a resource. WIthout them asking. This could be in the form of time, finances, and emotional support/ THis has been going on for years! And the moment I stop or take the time to focus on something else, or myself, I get phone calls about how I grew distant or weren’t there for someone when they need me.
Insert guilt…insert anger… insert extreme internalizing and negative self-talk!
Insanity
So this morning it hit me. Just because I can do something doesn’t mean that I have to. I have 100 in my pocket and someone just happens to need 100, doesn’t mean that it was meant for me to give it all to them. Faith makes me feel otherwise. I can give 100 and know that Ican make it back. So what happens when I give it and come up short of what I need? Is someone else going to show up for me? Yeah, I don’t know the right answer to that question.
Just because I have 15 mins of spare time doesn’t mean that I have to spend it helping someone solve their problems, while my needs are chilling in the cut.
What I do know is that I always have a choice. I can choose to hold on to the idea that I have to do it all because I can, or I can let go and exercise my freedom of choice.
You have a choice! You don’t have to do it all, even if you feel as if you can. There is a huge universe full of resources ready and waiting for you!
Hope this helps someone
