Manifesting the things you desire becomes easier once you learn how to be clear and direct with your request. The problem is most of us either don’t know what we want, don’t believe we will get what we desire, or have a hard time trusting. I can speak for myself. I can clearly tell you what my kids need or what my partner needs, but when placed in a position to get exactly what I want, my brain is clouded with noise. I wake up and my brain is often overwhelmed with decisions. For example:
As soon as my eyes open:
What time is it?
Did Kimani get up and make it to the bus on time?
What am I going to wear today?
Is it supposed to rain?
It’s cold af in the office so I have to dress accordingly
Damn my ankle is still swollen. I gotta pee but the wheelchair is in the hall, and it’s faster if I just limped my way to the bathroom. Should I get the wheelchair, or thug it? Decide
What am I going to eat for breakfast? Do we have eggs, bacon, peppermint tea?
I’m already nauseous so I hope that whatever I decide to eat stays down
Fuck what am I going to eat today? It’s hard to plan now that the baby has taken over.
What time is it? Damn it’s 7:30. I was hoping to be at work by 8:00
Fuck. Gotta hurry up.
Hey, mom have you seen my shoes? Can you sign this paper? I need field trip money
Don’t we have girl scouts tonight?
Babe have you seen the car keys. What do you want for breakfast? What time are you going to work? What’s up? What’s wrong? What can I do to help? By the way, I need to do some work on the other side of time so I may need Kimani to get the kids.
Let me know if you need anything
It’s 8:00. Still hungry and nauseous. Didn’t have the energy to comb my hair. Headwrap looks good. I need breakfast. McDonald’s oatmeal, water, and a banana. That should hold me for 2 hours. Clock in and focus on work…
So my attempt is to ask the universe for help. Is that clear? Not the clearest. What is clear is that I have support and help but guess what I have to ask for it. So what do I ask for in this situation? I can’t see that clearly because I don’t trust the people around me to show up for me. People don’t know how to show up for me unless I tell them plain and clear. Or hope that I figure it out. Any suggestions?
I do know that the answers are within me. I have to stop playing scared or victim and ask for what I want without fear and hesitation. Easy right? We shall see.
