by Olivia Moore | Nov 17, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
No one sees her when she’s crying
No one sees that deep inside she’s dying
Quickly sinking close to drowning
Sunrises give her the sign that it’s not her time
She stopped praying for eternal night
She’s trying to fight just to feel right
But no one sees
No one hears
They all flee
Come back when they have needs
Sorry the well has run dry
She doesn’t even have tears left to cry
Muthafuckin drought
Mind consumed with clouds of doubt
But others only care when she’s filled with sunshine
Want to be around as long as she doesn’t open up and pour out the dark side of her mind
She’ll be ok soon
Just let her be alone in her room
She’s just having a moment
Give her a minute
She’ll ask for help if she needs it
She always gets through it
Not my problem
Shit gets annoying
Why is she crying now
No one sees her
When will she accept that as fact?
Or is it fiction?
by Olivia Moore | Nov 14, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
Easily triggered
Just went from peace to rage
Feeling trapped in an emotional cage
Gotta take care of me is the underlying cause of my current mental state
Wishing someone would come along to make sure I eat
I need food on my plate
Take it literally or actual fact
Anger and resentment are present
Can’t deny that
I want this feeling to go away
Can’t function like this today
Gotta raise my vibration
Make the best of the situation
But right now I feel the need to turn my music full blast and fuck shit up
On a thin line between it’s all good and I don’t give a fuck
Breathing deeply fuels me
Gives me ammo to bust a hole in the wall
Trying desperately not to fall
Victim to these emotions
Be bigger than this queen
You gotta get through this
Accept that you have to do it
Get through it
Find a resolve
Ain’t no superhero or Thanos dissolve
Shit don’t go away with a snap
You gotta exhale the negative
And put in your solution cap
When will you see that your light is your superpower
Take a sec
Take a minute
And if necessary take an hour
Then take that step
The day just got here
Sun aint setting yet
Reset…
by Olivia Moore | Nov 12, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
sol·i·tar·y con·fine·ment
Seeking refinement
But my mind spirals to the sunken place
Tea used to be my remedy
But now I need a happy space
Someone pull me out of this hole
Overwhelming thoughts I can’t control
I can see but I feel so far away
Should I rest now and look forward to a brighter day
Frequent dreams filled with lucidity
Always something chasing me
Or I’m fighting to get free
Will there be rest for me?
by Olivia Moore | Nov 7, 2018 | Lesson of The Day, poems, Poetry
I swear on my life that music is the only thing that keeps me right
Helps me find the words I can’t find to write
I find myself wanting to push away friends
Just to be alone with my own thoughts and feelings
Some people avoid the pain and hard work that comes with healing
So they choose to self medicate
Or seek out any soul that can relate
Same story on repeat
Feeling weak and wanting to give in to defeat
I refuse so now I speak
So many around me battling with depression
Seeking quick solutions and venting sessions
But what’s the deeper lesson
Gotta get to the root
Focus on the shit that’s really bothering you
Seek that truth
Determine if it’s a lie
Do the work
It may require a moment to cry
Death to frequent stress depression and anxiety
Do the work and get free..
by Olivia Moore | Nov 3, 2018 | poems, Poetry
I’m going to write until I feel right
so here goes…
Bed rest
no rest
not stressed
recognizing I’m blessed
but sad no less
I need a moment to be held
I know it will all be ok
tired of the empty messages
or folks offering to pray
prayer won’t remove this lump in my throat
I believe screaming will help bring relief
Getting accustomed to sleeping alone
so my partner can find mental peace
No intercourse
gotta stay the course
no apple crown
wiping tears while adjusting my crown
Stay strong Queen
You got this
You’re built Ford tough
Last I checked after 100,000 miles
they aren’t strong enough
Someone reset the odometer
I’m over my mileage
I need more than a tune-up
I got frequent leaks from my eyelids
I just had my oil changed
and mechanic added a few stitches and a patch
He hopes that it gets me through the next 20 weeks
It will if I do my part…
Been through this before
and I’m off to a good start
but what do I do with the emotions and feelings
that are compacted and clogged within my heart
Any recommendations for a good flush?
by Olivia Moore | Oct 24, 2018 | EveryDay, Lesson of The Day, poems, Poetry
Currently struggling with finding a balance
When to take care of myself
And when to expect someone else to have a solution
It’s tough when you’re the one that everyone turns to
It’s hard when every comes to you because you always seem to know what to do
Maybe I need to manage my expectations
Or figure out a way to calm these rapid heart palpitations
People offer to take care of you But first you must tell them exactly what to do
Do you know how much mental work that takes ?
And every time someone shows me they they still don’t just know how to help me
My heart breaks How much more can one brain take ?
Who can I go to ask for solutions ?
The universe is so vast It doesn’t help that I’ve always had me
I took care of me in the past
What do you do when you desperately want that to change ?
What do you do when you want to naturally vibrate in a different range
These are my questions for today
Some say you should be still and pray
Others say the solution is to meditate
Perhaps both parties are on the right path
Maybe the best thing for me to do is be still and ask
Still healing ….
