by Olivia Moore | Nov 23, 2018 | poems, Poetry
You spend years thinking you have a clue
Holidays and traditions and routines are set in stone for you
Until it isn’t… then what do you do?
Do you get to force things to be how they used to be?
Do you focus on one year at a time?
Be present in your present reality
This will Be year 3 of semi-lonely holidays
Fighting myself from reverting to old ways
Pushing myself to travel to see family
Instead of taking the time to spend with me
Kids are with their other halves
Co-parenting can be a blessing
So no need for stressing
The kids have a chance to receive more love
Manifestations from my words that were sent above
Once again is me and he
Trying to get a handle on all that we see
Baby bop growing inside of me
Invites from new family
When will I see that I have a choice
I’m free
by Olivia Moore | Nov 21, 2018 | poems, Poetry
Sit right here while I unpack
Here hold this
And this
Oh and don’t forget that
I’m so grateful that you have my back
I’m feeling better
Gotta go
I may or may not come back
by Olivia Moore | Nov 20, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
Instead of chasing high vibrations
I’m taking a moment to be in the now
Gotta fight this heavy feeling that I feel somehow
Quickly feel myself backing away
Trying to muster up enough energy to play
It’s hard to have fun when you’re low
It’s hard to find joy in the midst of growth
It’s up to you to decide
Are you going to choose happiness
Or continue to let it hide ?
Spread your wings and fly.
by Olivia Moore | Nov 17, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
No one sees her when she’s crying
No one sees that deep inside she’s dying
Quickly sinking close to drowning
Sunrises give her the sign that it’s not her time
She stopped praying for eternal night
She’s trying to fight just to feel right
But no one sees
No one hears
They all flee
Come back when they have needs
Sorry the well has run dry
She doesn’t even have tears left to cry
Muthafuckin drought
Mind consumed with clouds of doubt
But others only care when she’s filled with sunshine
Want to be around as long as she doesn’t open up and pour out the dark side of her mind
She’ll be ok soon
Just let her be alone in her room
She’s just having a moment
Give her a minute
She’ll ask for help if she needs it
She always gets through it
Not my problem
Shit gets annoying
Why is she crying now
No one sees her
When will she accept that as fact?
Or is it fiction?
by Olivia Moore | Nov 14, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
Easily triggered
Just went from peace to rage
Feeling trapped in an emotional cage
Gotta take care of me is the underlying cause of my current mental state
Wishing someone would come along to make sure I eat
I need food on my plate
Take it literally or actual fact
Anger and resentment are present
Can’t deny that
I want this feeling to go away
Can’t function like this today
Gotta raise my vibration
Make the best of the situation
But right now I feel the need to turn my music full blast and fuck shit up
On a thin line between it’s all good and I don’t give a fuck
Breathing deeply fuels me
Gives me ammo to bust a hole in the wall
Trying desperately not to fall
Victim to these emotions
Be bigger than this queen
You gotta get through this
Accept that you have to do it
Get through it
Find a resolve
Ain’t no superhero or Thanos dissolve
Shit don’t go away with a snap
You gotta exhale the negative
And put in your solution cap
When will you see that your light is your superpower
Take a sec
Take a minute
And if necessary take an hour
Then take that step
The day just got here
Sun aint setting yet
Reset…
by Olivia Moore | Nov 12, 2018 | poems, Poetry, Uncategorized
sol·i·tar·y con·fine·ment
Seeking refinement
But my mind spirals to the sunken place
Tea used to be my remedy
But now I need a happy space
Someone pull me out of this hole
Overwhelming thoughts I can’t control
I can see but I feel so far away
Should I rest now and look forward to a brighter day
Frequent dreams filled with lucidity
Always something chasing me
Or I’m fighting to get free
Will there be rest for me?
